Is it too much Thinking... Is it Drifting... or is it Simply Floating ?
Tell me, why would life be Simply Floating at aged 36, married with 3 children ? Someone once told me to "Fake It to You Make". I held that close to my heart and that advice got me through some dark days of grief and morning over a lost love, but why am I now feeling like the need to take that advice again?
Is this midlife crisis or simply part of "Somatopause - The Middle Age Meltdown", a condition casued by the decline in the body's production of Growth Hormone as the body ages, causing, weight gain, lack of sexual drive, sleeplessness, depression, loss of muscle tone, impaired glucose levels, skin wrinkling and the list goes on, all of which starts at aged 30. Well aren't I blessed now that I am 36 and have at least 6 of these symptoms (excluding sexual drive.. god us women need that too, no mater what the age).
Some call this condition the "Middle-Age Blimp Out!" and I know that I certainly don't want to be classed as a "Blimp Out" so on wards and forward.... must I continue to Simply Float, or will I soon engage in a mission of combating Somatopause and anything else that comes my way.
Mmmm, first things first.... I MUST exercise other than just having sex with my partner I think that I truly should invest in some joggers (exercise shoes) so that one can go walking or perhaps I'll just Simply Float down the street and come back all energised and ready to combat the day.
As a mum we face challenges everyday and we get through them, we do what's got to be done and we make sure everyones ok. But what about us? What about how we're feeling and how we're going? Does anyone truly listen to what we have to say? Does our partner really understand what we need and want? or Have they too become accustomed to the "Simply Floating" along in life. Is this what life is really going to be like for the next 15 to 20 years whilst our kids are growing up and making their lives?
Enough with this crap.. I'm a Young 36 year old and I certainly don't want to be Simply Floating for the next so many years.. I want my life back! I want to feel loved, I want to be empowered, I want to be just so! "With or Without You"... I'm gonna be great... and hopefully we'll be great together!